i don't know anymore. i had a comment, on one of my posts that i wrote when i was half out of my head, and the comment said "basically your a dumb selfish bitch" (they did write "your" instead of "you're". that's annoying).
i read the post, i was out of my head, i sounded like a raving lunatic. but this is my safe place to rant and say things that i would never say to anyone in my "real" life. i don't tell anyone else this stuff. i rant it out here, and then i can go about my day with a little less on my mind. but then when i am attacked by "anonymous"... it makes me feel like a fool. a damn fool. i feel like a loser. i am so hard on my self to not be weak or selfish or anything like that... and then even here where i thought i was doing something to vent it all out and whatever... and then it turns out i really am thought of as a fool. i know one person does not equal the opinion of everyone... but i have been in a crappy spot today, this week really, and i don't have anyone to talk to in my "real life" so i come here... but now i don't feel safe to come here. even here i am judged and in the eye of public people which means i need to keep that "good" front up and keep acting like a chipper cheerful me.
i'm going to sleep now. this is dumb to type still.
i read the post, i was out of my head, i sounded like a raving lunatic. but this is my safe place to rant and say things that i would never say to anyone in my "real" life. i don't tell anyone else this stuff. i rant it out here, and then i can go about my day with a little less on my mind. but then when i am attacked by "anonymous"... it makes me feel like a fool. a damn fool. i feel like a loser. i am so hard on my self to not be weak or selfish or anything like that... and then even here where i thought i was doing something to vent it all out and whatever... and then it turns out i really am thought of as a fool. i know one person does not equal the opinion of everyone... but i have been in a crappy spot today, this week really, and i don't have anyone to talk to in my "real life" so i come here... but now i don't feel safe to come here. even here i am judged and in the eye of public people which means i need to keep that "good" front up and keep acting like a chipper cheerful me.
i'm going to sleep now. this is dumb to type still.
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1 comments:
There's a lot of trolls on the internet. They come out from under their bridges to try to make someone else miserable.
I wouldn't pay attention to them. Life has enough problem without dealing with ugly little critters with bad breath.;)
Besides that, I like your blog. I read it almost every day.
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