I came home from school early yesterday andfound my mom in my room, reorganizing and cleaning big time. She added storage and a second dresser in my closet along with doing my laundry and reorganizing my clothes. It was so surprising and my room is a thousand times more efficient. Everything she was doing, including the hamper for me to put my dirty clothes so she could wash them while I'm at school or work, everything was designed to help reduce my daily stress after I've been at school or work all day. Her energy was different to, much calmer, and just had a more understanding feel to it.
She took time to lay on my bed with me and talk a little but mostly just relax in company. It is a complete180 from the day, weeks, months before. Her energy was totally different. I'm so completely surprised!
Having a different energy from her was so helpful with regard to my state of mind. I felt calmer and when I expressed limitations as to what I could do. Such as not being able to go "out" twice in one day, once I'm home from work or school I don't leave the house. Instead of criticizing me for watching a couple reruns of House that I've seen 5+ times (this is a compulsion of mine) she sat and watched with me.
There were so many little differences that mean so much to me, I cannot begin to list them all.
It was really really great.
She just called my phone and I was stressed and afraid to answer because it was either going to be a bitchfest about something I did wrong or a request for me to run some sort of an errand for her. I almost didn't pick up, but I felt guilty ignoring her, so I answered. I was so surprised when her only quuestion was if I wanted her to rearrange the furniture in my room, because she had an idea that would give me more space. I was SOO shocked! In a good way.
Her change in attitude and everything is great. I am so happy about this, it gives me a really good feeling, and I hope like hell that it lasts!!!!! :o)
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3 comments:
We sometimes forget how precious we are to our parents. Their love can burn their souls with guilt and worry and they'll hide it with angry words or what appears as apathy. They struggle with life like we do, but have to appear as strong. It's a role they've accepted it can be a terrible burden.
Have a great weekend and get some rest when you can.
That is so fantastic!! Trust me when I say, I know how you're feeling. My Mom did a complete 180 on me after I was hospitalized. She's gone from being my major stressor to being a very good friend :) I do hope this continues for the both of you!
I can't even explain how wonderful this day has been! She did more than a 180... I'm going to call it a 540!
The little things she would do and say, the stressful, urgent, and wound-up way she would say them has been replaced by a calmness that is SOOO good for me mentally. It's really great. :o)
I do believe I shall rest now in my freshly reorganized room (which she did a totally kick ass job with and it feels SO much better in here with more room and fresh organization!
:o)
I feel so hopeful, such a lovely feeling!
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