Interview - Thumbs Down

Well the interview...
It was quick and simple.

The main idea is that her research is going in the direction of primarily working with animal models of stuff, *not* people brains. No EEG, no fMRI, no MRS, no autonomic psychophysiology lab... which means no hunting down levels of NAA in anybody's brain, or mess around with any creatures MR and GR in the hippocampi, or any of the methods that I would like to use in my research and future dissertations.

Obviously, she was not enthused that I was not enthused, and suggested I contact some other persons to see if they want to talk to me or whatever.

After talking with her, her lab doesn't interest me, so.... now fucking what.

TAMU has another neuro dept through the college of medicine where neurosurgeons (cocky ass-bags) work with the neuroscientists; we can play with all of the big fun toys and human subjects with psych d/o or TBI.

I am going to email the woman I spoke with last year in that Neuroscience Institute thingie.

PS I still feel like shit, this means more Ativan. I also still hate everything. It's the type of feeling where I just want to sleep forever. Fuck it all and sleeeeeep sleeeeeep sleeeeeeeep. Except last night, after reading those old letter and mentally revisiting the shit that exhub put me through, we my brain decided last night would be a lovely time to dream about him. That was stupid.

At any rate. I'm incredibly pissy, angry, explosive, and hating. So I am done typing tonight.

Peace to all.