Well the interview...
It was quick and simple.
The main idea is that her research is going in the direction of primarily working with animal models of stuff, *not* people brains. No EEG, no fMRI, no MRS, no autonomic psychophysiology lab... which means no hunting down levels of NAA in anybody's brain, or mess around with any creatures MR and GR in the hippocampi, or any of the methods that I would like to use in my research and future dissertations.
Obviously, she was not enthused that I was not enthused, and suggested I contact some other persons to see if they want to talk to me or whatever.
After talking with her, her lab doesn't interest me, so.... now fucking what.
TAMU has another neuro dept through the college of medicine where neurosurgeons (cocky ass-bags) work with the neuroscientists; we can play with all of the big fun toys and human subjects with psych d/o or TBI.
I am going to email the woman I spoke with last year in that Neuroscience Institute thingie.
PS I still feel like shit, this means more Ativan. I also still hate everything. It's the type of feeling where I just want to sleep forever. Fuck it all and sleeeeeep sleeeeeep sleeeeeeeep. Except last night, after reading those old letter and mentally revisiting the shit that exhub put me through, we my brain decided last night would be a lovely time to dream about him. That was stupid.
At any rate. I'm incredibly pissy, angry, explosive, and hating. So I am done typing tonight.
Peace to all.
Posts
3 comments:
Something I'd like to share with you... breathing exercises. And I know it's not easy to remember to do this when we're caught up in the rages or crying bouts. When you feel that pressure starting to build in your chest, take a deep breath, hold it for a few seconds, then slowly let it go. Repeat a few times until you feel calmer. It really does work! It's not a long term solution, but can help with the short term emotions.
You got through one interview and you obviously know exactly what you want to get into. I think that's pretty fantastic. You've stuck with your studies this long and I know that hasn't been easy. You can take the next step... even if it takes a bit longer, you know you can do it because you've already gotten this far :)
Thank you so much for your words of encouragment and support :o)
I have a relaxation/meditation/imagery or something tape on my phone, and I am listening to it before I go to sleep. I try to do the breathing things when I am all wound up, but usually it tends to make me angrier (I don't know why!). I took the Ativan and I chilled out, now I feel more relax-able!
I did additional research into a slightly different branch of the school, their Medical campus and Neuroscience Institute where neurosurgeons and neuroscientists treat/study psychiatric disorders, neurodegenerative disorders, and traumatic brain injury. The work this one woman has done in the past is SPOT ON to what I am looking for. I am going to email her tomorrow to discuss possible options. I hope that the fact one professor already interviewed me will help my chances because it shows that I am of interest to the school.
The Institute has invasive human brain chemistry and electrophysiology, pathopysiology, and neuroimaging labs on the grounds. She also works closely with two psychiatrists which would be most excellent to network with them as I need a pdoc to recruit the patient subjects.
So, this may be a good turn of events for me. I am not too discouraged by this, I am still mostly glad that someone even *wanted* to interview me!!
I will definitely keep this updated as to what comes along next :o)
and as well as the two psychiatrists she has worked with (to recruit the patient populations for research)
Thank you so much for your words of encouragment and support :o)
I have a relaxation/meditation/imagery or something tape on my phone, and I am listening to it before I go to sleep. I try to do the breathing things when I am all wound up, but usually it tends to make me angrier (I don't know why!). I took the Ativan and I chilled out, now I feel more relax-able!
I did additional research into a slightly different branch of the school, their Medical campus and Neuroscience Institute where neurosurgeons and neuroscientists treat/study psychiatric disorders, neurodegenerative disorders, and traumatic brain injury. The work this one woman has done in the past is SPOT ON to what I am looking for. I am going to email her tomorrow to discuss possible options. I hope that the fact one professor already interviewed me will help my chances because it shows that I am of interest to the school.
The Institute has invasive human brain chemistry and electrophysiology, pathopysiology, and neuroimaging labs on the grounds. She also works closely with two psychiatrists which would be most excellent to network with them as I need a pdoc to recruit the patient subjects.
So, this may be a good turn of events for me. I am not too discouraged by this, I am still mostly glad that someone even *wanted* to interview me!!
I will definitely keep this updated as to what comes along next :o)
and as well as the two psychiatrists she has worked with (to recruit the patient populations for research)
Post a Comment