While not super, I can sit for more than 30 seconds without flying out of my head. This is a pretty big step okay.
So I guess it's time to change my Rx profile to include 300mg lamotrigine, up from the prior 200mg. Tonight is the test... will I wake up horrified from night terrors? Emotionally distraught and tormented?
Dude, I hope not.
At any rate... moving on.
I did a completely retarded thing just now. In light of my ability to sit for 30 seconds, I on/off worked on this godforsaken online dating profile. I am feeling so quite very absurd at the moment. Oh well. I never get out to meet people. So what the hell, if anything it will be an entertaining distraction, right?
Well my profile has been active for all of 45 minutes and I have four "winks". Feeling motivated, I looked at the winkers' profiles. Alas, I freshly recall why my previous stint at the online match-making was cut short... the dudes that are on there... well... either they have no fear of rejection or think way too highly of themselves. Or are smoking crack.
For example. I am a 5'10 Amazonian-built woman, like a "brick-house" as a ghetto co-worker explained. And yeah, after her use of that word I really did go to UrbanDictionary.com and look this business up for clarification. Okay, I'm a curvy ass-kicking machine. True story. I did know a dude flat at the bars one night with a right hook after he thought grabbing the girls with both hands as he walked by was a good idea. I corrected his errant thinking.
Okay, back on track. I'm tall. I'm not dainty. I'm touch. I kick-boxed for a good minute. I need a dude that is built as well, taller than me, etc. It's a freaking evolutionary imperative; females need to feel protected by their mate because they will inevitably need protection from lions and panthers when they have popped out a couple rugrats and someone to hunt down food while caring for said rugrats. Duh....
So, I'm looking for a taller homeslice. I clearly state this in the damn profile. So why the hell do short peeps go about winking and whatnot? WHY? I seriously don't get it. If a dude's profile says he's looking for a slim/slender woman, I sure as fuck don't "wink" at him. Clearly I'm not "slender", and clearly that is what he's looking for. Sooooo... why don't dudes use similar logic?
Freaking A. Stop wasting my time. I'm not an ass and go about the whole politely declining the person thing, and this wastes my time because he's stupid in the first place.
I'm cranky. Clearly. Seriously though, this is annoying as all hell.
I have bipolar disorder which is a total blast. No, I do not write in this blog for pity or to wallow in my troubles. I blog for two reasons: 1.) It is incredibly therapeutic for me since I don't talk to anyone face to face about these things, and 2.) my words sometimes help others who are rocking out with similar issues. Which is rad. I'm all about some teamwork here.
I'm not out on a mission to offend your delicate sensibilities. So if you don't like something I write, I suggest you pull the panties out of your bum and exit the blog. Nasty comments aren't cool, and they make me cry.