Rx Adjustment Needed.

Shit with my brain hasn't been improving. In fact, my silly little 3 pound lump of neurons has been working less and less efficiently lately.

What to do. Hmm.

I will go see the pdoc soon. I need to call and make an appointment. I've needed to do that since Wednesday when my Rx for Adderall expired. Haven't done that yet. It's too much. So I avoid it. And don't do it. Like a lot of things. I simply don't do them. My room for example... a freaking mess. Do I clean it? Nope.

Let's talk about Lamictal... good ole lamotrigine. Currently at 200mg, and thinking about upping that. Terrified as all hell about the vivid night terrors that have accompanied any dose >200 mg in the past.

Really fucking terrified.

I can feel the effects of missing a dose of lamotrigine sooner than I have in the past. I usually take the second dose (of 100 mg) at noon. If I miss it, by one o'clock I'm feeling out of whack. Hell when ten or eleven am rolls around I'm generally thinking about having that noon dose earlier because my brain circuitry is already starting to unravel. I used to not notice the effects of a missed afternoon dose until the next morning or next afternoon. Lately the lamotrigine hasn't been the wonderful semi-cure it was in the past; it is a buffer to take the edge off of the crazy but the crazy never goes away. Which pretty much blows.

So it looks like I will be enjoying another 50 mg of that fun chemical soon. As soon as I get my ass out of bed to go pee or whatever it is I do next in my enduringly monotonous life.

Extremities are crossed in hopes that the night terrors stay the hell out of my head tonight.