I currently have jello for brains. This is stupid. Pardon the negativity in this post. But seriously. I'm more than pissed right now. I have A TON OF CRAP to do for school and junk. I'm very behind. I'm stressed out. Freaked out. And I am having a ridiculously difficult time using the lump of jello within my skull. It feels like jello. Information and things I need to put INTO my brain bounce off of this piece of jello and float away. Simple things escape me. I forgot how to get to the airport this morning while taking my mom's friend there. It's all ridiculous. I sit and try to study. The stuff doesn't stick in my head and I read and reread and NOTHING. Like jello. Or I cannot concentrate and end up doing a heap of other perfectly pointless activities on the laptop and whatnot. Adderall isn't helping the concentration issue. I don't know what the hell I am going to do. Working full time, working in the lab, research thesis, graduate courses, and trying to NOT be a crazy person at the same time is pretty damn hard. I'm trying to remain positive and not bitch (hence why I haven't been posting much because I don't have squat to say that is 'happy') but this is seriously on my last fucking nerve. And I'm not sure what to do. And GREs are right around the corner as well.
Fuckitall.
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I hate zero comments. It's like looking into a vacuum.
Anyway, no advice or especially useful info, since the last few days have been with the other bozos on the bus.(How do so many "normal" people defend any idea they actually are?)
Hope you had a great day.
Jess,
More often than not I think that "normal" people are screwed up just as much, just in a different way. While I know what's up with my head and work to mediate it as best as I can, other people can be just plain idiots. Drama seeking, or immature, liars, jerk-faces, or some other form of annoying and yucky personality. I feel lucky that I can mediate to some degree my mental screwy-ness and that in a lot of ways, that screwy-ness has worked to make me a better person in the ways "normal" folks suck.
In summary, I may be a crazy person, but at least I'm not a douche-bag
hehehehe :D
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